I need "safe" people around me right now

Psalm 56:4 (NASB) "In God, whose word I praise, In God I have put my trust; I shall not be afraid. What can mere man do to me?"

This verse was perfect timing for me today. I really love how God does that! His word is so powerful. It hits the hurting spot of my heart every time.

I decided not to see the visiting family member. The one who has been mean in the past. I was not feeling well that weekend with my hormones acting up.

I did not feel strong enough and I was not able to fit in much counselling beforehand.

My husband and I both had a peace I made the right decision.

It turned out she was fairly pleasant my husband said. However I'm not positive she was kind to all the other family members. I l was not in a place to risk it.

Last night I still had a half rejection dream. Actually it was not that bad. It was about my old best friend who ditched me in the popular crowd. She wss ashamed of me.
In the dream I brought us both lunch and ate with her. We were teenagers in the dream. When we were kids in years 3&4 I used to bring extra lunch for her as her mean step mum did not pack enough.

She sat with me off to the side which felt like she did not want anyone else to know of our friendship.

But she was kind which was nice yet confusing.

There is still more therapy needed for me. It's feels so good to admit that and be proud of myself for seeking help. There is no shame I'm counseling. I'm having a hard time finding a therapist close to my town. It may have to wait till summer when my Kid's are out of school.

In the mean time I can choose "safe" relationships. I plan on confronting this family member who triggers the pain of my past.

God knows when is a good time. I am hoping and praying the Lord will bring healing to all of our hearts and bond us all closer together. She has hurt many other family members by her coldness.

God has this whole situation in his hands. He is invested in my healing. He will lead the way.

Jeremiah 17:7 "But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence.