Righteousness verses Rejection

I recently cried out another prayer to my heavenly Father.

"Lord please turn my past and present rejections into reminding me of my righteousness in you"

Father, HELP righteousness speak louder than rejection!

I prayed this after I felt rejected by two ladies in one day. One who I am friends with and one who I am not.

One of these woman is a huge trigger to my past. She reminds me of a woman in my past who under the influence of a Pastor I was bullied by, who was also cold and mean to me. Her personality was strong and I felt lorded over. At a time when I was barely in my twenties and felt so insecure. This was back when I still did not recognise a bully. I had been bullied for 90% of my life at this point and I simply could not see bullying for what it was. Sadly it was when I was so painfully hard on myself I thought I deserved it.

I prayed some desperate prayers as I felt those same nervous PTSD panic symptoms rise up in my entire being faster than my brain and heart could catch up with.

LORD, I prayed, Please help me with those sorts of personalities. Who remind me of painful people in my past. God please use the pain of my past for your glory!

Then God in his goodness lead me to some beautifully healing verses over the next few days. One was when I listened to the painful testimony of Joyce Meyer.

She mentioned a transforming verse that gives so much hope to a heart that has been bullied.
Isaiah 61:7 "Instead of your [former] shame you shall have a twofold recompence; instead of dishonour and reproach [your people] shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double [what they had forfeited]: everlasting joy shall be theirs. "

 Woohooo! God really does care. He really wants to rebuild the damage done to us, restore the former devaestations, and repair places in our heart that have been ruined by the mistreatment of others to our soul (Isaiah 61:4) and exchange our ashes for his beauty (Isaiah 61:3).

Please remember with me that you and I are chosen, precious and valuable to God.

As it says in 1 Peter 2:4 "As you came to Him a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious"

So we can hold our heads high in the fact that we are the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. We are accepted by our Heavenly Father even when we do not feel it or experience it form others.

People are fickle. But God is not.

Here is another verse the Lord used to uplift my heart ad I hope it does for you too.

Deuteronomy 31:6 "So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you."

God will not ever leave you or fail you. You can trust him. He will not let you down. Not once.

So hold your head high. You are so valuable. God thinks your awesome and so do I. Look to what God thinks of you, not what others may or may not think of you.

It will set you free. I am working on it myself!