My Prayer over my Past and his Purposes

This is my earnest my heart felt prayer for God to use the pain of my past for his purposes.

I told my Mum I would tell my story. I also told a Tim Hazzard, high school chaplain that I admired that I would share my story and all it's pain. Tim really encouraged me to share my story as he had come across so many teenagers who were either self rejecting, self harming or close to suicide as I once was.

I gave these two incredibly Godly people my word. Both are now in heaven. Both have probably told God himself what I had promised them I would do.

So being true to my word I prayed this prayer this morning with all my heart and soul. My heart aches for those who reject themselves, harm themselves or have either attempted suicide or have considered it due to the pain of bullying they have endured.

So here is my prayer and declaration;

My Prayer For God to Use the Pain Of My Past For His Purposes



God please use the pain of my past from being bullied to restore, save and heal other lives form the destruction of self rejection, self harm and suicide or bullycide.

Use my pain for your purposes. Just like it says in Genesis 50:19-21

Genesis 50:19-21:
But Joseph said to them
"do not fear, for I am in the place of God . As for you , you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive as they are today. So do not fear for I will provide for you and your little ones".
Thus he comforted them and spoke kindly to them.

This is the story in the bible where Joseph, the youngest of many brothers was also rejected and thrown into a pit. He was sold into slavery. It gets even worse though. He was accused of commiting a crime he did not do and thrown into jail. Later God promoted him to the Pharoh's right hand man and he helped rule over all of Egypt including his brothers. You have probably read the story in the bible for yourself.
His kindness and forgiveness were incredible. God turned the evil done towards me into His good and I know He wants to do the same for me and you too!