rejerction repellant

Over the years as the Lord has lead me along a recovery journey from my many years of being bullied and not fitting in. He has graciously lead me to very healing and uplifting bible verses.

In many ways I would rather jump our of a moving plane, speak in front of millions of people, pick up a huge spider or a snake, or face any number of the most common fears people supposedly have. I would gladly face these most common fears head on before risking rejection, again.

My fears often come up when I am about face a group of people. It could be church or a social group, a party. It is not that I am an introvert. I have discovered people do give me energy in moderate amounts. I am more of what I call a middleovert or an omnivert or an ambivert.

noun. 1. (psychol) a person who is intermediate between an extrovert and an introvert. ... "person exhibiting features of an extrovert and an introvert," coined by Kimball Young in "Source Book for Social Psychology" (1927), from ambi- "about, around" + Latin vertere, as in introvert. Related: Ambiversion.

Ambivert | Define Ambivert at Dictionary.com

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So I have kept a list of verses in my phone for when I am afraid.

I call these verses Rejection Repellant. This title makes me smile and takes the edge of my fears.

I can pull them out before I face a group and say them to myself. I can quietly read them any time or have my kids read them to me while I am driving, hopefully this will remind them too that they are always accepted by their heavenly Father.

I hope they will be able to encourage others who have also gone through the pain and suffering of being bullied and excluded. I have come to realise the most valuable acceptance is from the one who will never reject you. From the one who will never change and loves you with a unconditional love. From the one who's mercies are new every morning for the times when you are unkind to others and make mistakes. This love and acceptance in its truest form comes from my God, my loving Father who supersedes and triumphs all rejection and abandonment from my own absent earthly Father.

So I say to the bullied and to those who feel as though they are miss fits and to the unpopular, hold your head high. You are chosen, dearly loved and accepted. You are precious and so valued just the way you are. You are equal to those you fear. You don't need to be afraid anymore. He is with you. The God of the whole universe that is. He chooses you, always.  Stand tall without a hint of shame and let your faces shine radiantly. Look only to Him for acceptance and most of all be yourself. Always.

And when you are shaking in your boots and can not find the strength in your heart to believe these verses. When all confidence tried to escape you, I still feel this at times. Read them and meditate on them and read them some more. I still do.